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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

LOVE between TWO Hearts

If u find urself in love with some1 who does not love u, be gentle with urself. There is nothing wrong with u. Love just din choose 2 rest in d other person's heart.


If u find some1 else in love with u n u don't love her/him, feel honoured that love came n called at ur door, but gently refuse d gift u can't return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.


How u deal with love is how u deal with u, n all our hearts feel d same pains n joys, even if our lives n ways r different.



If u fall in love with another, n she falls in love with u, n then love chooses 2 leave, do not try 2 reclaim it or 2 assess blame, Let it go. There is a reason n there is a meaning. U will know in time.

Remember that u don't choose love. Love chooses u. All u can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into ur life. Feel
the way it fills u 2 overflowing, then reach out n give it away.


This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, n they begin 2 look at love as something that flows 2 them rather than from them.


Remember this, n keep it to ur heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, n its own reason for coming n going. U can't bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. U can only embrace it when it arrives n give it away when it comes 2 u.


But if it chooses 2 leave from ur heart or from d heart of ur lover, there is nothing u can do n there is nothing u should do. Love always has been n always will be a mystery.


Be glad that it came 2 live for a moment in ur life. Don't deny love just only u don't want 2 be hurt...


Give it back 2 d person who brought it alive in u. Give it 2 others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it 2 d world around u in anyway u can.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

CONFUSED

Shit, I am very confused. I found her, but the more she act the more I dont know her, and wanna run away from her. I still dont get it, I know she know what to do. But why she dont do that ? arghh... its hurt you know, I hope you know how I feel.

what you did is what you gonna get... thats all I can say. Take care... :(

Friday, August 26, 2005

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Friday, July 29, 2005

SOULMATE

.: I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet;

.: I finally found the one who makes me feel complete...

.: It started over coffee, we started out as friends;

.: It's funny how from simple things; the best things begin...

.: This time is different;

.: la la la la

.: It's all because of you!..

.: It's better than it's ever been;

.: Cuz we can talk it through;

.: My favorite line was 'Can I call you sometime?';

.: It's all you had to say...

.: To take my breath away...



.: This is it!

.: Oh, I finally found someone; Someone to share my life;

.: I finally found the one - to be with every night;

.: Cause whatever I do

.: It's just got to be you!

.: My life has just begun, I finally found someone...



.: Did I keep you waiting?

.: I didn't mind

.: I apologize

.: Baby, that's fine

.: I would wait forever

.: Just to know you were mine;

.: Ya Know - I love your hair...

.: Are you sure it looks right?

.: I love what you wear...

.: Isn't it too tight?

.: You're exceptional!

.: I can't wait for the rest of my life...



.: Oh This Is It!

.: I finally found someone; Someone to share my life,

.: I finally found the one; to be with every night...

.: Cause whatever I do

.: It's just got to be you

.: My life has just begun; I finally found someone...

.: And whatever I do.

.: It's just got to be you!

.: My life has just begun...

.: I finally found someone...


**Yeah...... Finally I found my soulmate.... , It's hard to belive but its
true...and it is you


She is Very simple, smart, sexy, kind, pretty, mature.. and she have almost
everything inside me.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Step-By-Step Guide to a Signed Contract


By Brendon Sinclair
October 16th 2002

As a freelancer, you can expect to experience some tough
competition when you pitch for a job.



For any one job, you might compete with other freelancers, small


Web design firms, and even larger interactive agencies.


So how can you make sure your quote or proposal wins the job?



The New Rules for Quoting


My advice for quoting is this: never, ever charge by how long it will take.
Don't charge by how skilled you are.


And certainly don't charge less than the competition. Charge more -- usually
lots more.


I base my charges on how much I think the client will pay.


We win 95% of all the jobs for which we pitch, and I can just about guarantee
we're the most expensive every time.

Why? Well, the key to quoting is to realize this: clients won't assess you on
your skill or programming level.


They won't assess you on your creative genius, or even on your design
ability.


They usually don't have the technical expertise to objectively judge that
stuff anyway.


The only thing the client is interested in is: can you do the job?

And, more importantly: is contracting you as the designer going to be less
risky than using someone else?


How To Win With a Higher Quote


We won a job a couple of weeks ago for $17,000. We were up against two other
designers.


The other quotes were for $3,000 and $3,500. So why did we get the job?



  • Are we better qualified? No.


  • Would we finish the site quicker? No.

  • Are we better designers? Probably not.

  • Do we live closer to the client? Nope.

  • Is the client my dad? Good question, but no!

I'll go through what we did so you can see exactly why we got the job and
continue to get jobs at a premium price.


Initiation


The client rings the office and tells me he wants a Website. I make an
appointment for 3 days time.


Letter of Thanks


As soon as I'm off the phone I send a "Thanks for the call" letter confirming
the time and place of the meeting.


We include a business card. The client receives it the next day.


Research


We do as much research on the potential client as possible, including when
the company started, products, people in the firm, etc.


This takes a couple of hours.


The Meeting


I arrive on time to the meeting wearing a perfect blue suit and a blue tie
(as this is the client's corporate colour).


I'm carrying my beautiful leather briefcase. I open the conversation with
some small talk and tell the potential client what an awful weekend I had
because I shot a 85 on the ABC Golf Course. He says "Really? I'm a member there.
I love golf." Gee, what a co-incidence that is.


We finish the small talk and get onto business. I bring out a manila folder
with his name, position,


business name and logo on a sticker on the front. Also evident is the time
and date of the meeting.


From this I pull out a 6 page 'Assessment Form' that I'll use to identify his
needs and wants.


We go through this at the meeting, and I make many notes using my lovely
fountain pen.


After an hour-long meeting I thank him for his time, tell him I'll be in
touch again on Thursday, and leave.



Letter of Thanks


Back at the office I draft the "Thank you for your time" letter and post it
off.



The Follow-Up


On Thursday at 9am I ring and let the prospect know that we've reviewed his
needs and wants and have a draft proposal ready.


I explain that we need to go over the draft to "ensure I have everything
straight in my head" and


I make an appointment to meet with him in 3 days time. I send off a
letter confirming that appointment.




The Second Meeting


I go to the next meeting with a neat, concise overview of what his needs are,


and what we need to do together in order to achieve them.


toss in a few case studies of previous clients to show we have a
complete understanding of what he requires.




The client says "Yep, that's about what we need." I ask when he needs our quote,


and the client says "It's quite urgent, so the middle of the week." I promise
to deliver it to the client by Wednesday at 4pm.




Letter of Thanks


You guessed it -- the client gets another "Thank you for your time" letter.




Proposal Delivery


On Tuesday at 9.30am the client receives the quote from us

via courier. We've attached a polite note that explains that, as

he needed the quote urgently, we worked on it over the weekend

to have it ready early.


The quote itself is actually a 30-page, nicely-bound proposal

that reiterates his needs and wants, and shows how the site will

address them. It includes testimonials from previous clients

(with contact numbers), proposed site flow charts, and a

timetable of exactly what would happen and when.




We also include profiles on the team members who would work

on the site, and the FAQ section has 20 of our most common

questions and answers. We also include copies of articles from

computer magazines that have reviewed our previous sites, and a

CD-ROM that contains examples of our previous sites.


Proposal Meeting


I visit the prospect as promised and ask if he has any

questions regarding the proposal. We discuss these, and I then

ask for the job. "Well John," I say, "would you like us to work

with you on this project?"


Letter of Thanks


When he says "Yes", we send him a "Thanks for choosing us"

letter, along with our first invoice (of 50% of the total

quote). We include a Reply Paid envelope that he can use to mail

us the cheque.





The key phases are:

  • Phase 1- Keyword Strategy

  • Phase 2 - Site Design & Structure

  • Phase 3 - Optimizing Web Pages

  • Phase 4 - Link Building

  • Phase 5 Getting Indexed

  • Phase 6 Monitoring & Adjustment




Thanking the Referrer


I then send the person who referred this client a "Thanks for

the referral" letter, and then take him and his wife out for a

very nice dinner.


Following Through


As it turns out, we didn't do what we'd promised on this

particular job... we did more: 2 extra pages, a little


Flash
, and one or two other things.

When the site was finished I took the client out for lunch

and thanked him for the assistance with the project. I told him

what a pleasure it had been to work with such a professional,

and gave him a gift of a framed photo that we'd scanned and put

on the site. It was a photo of the business' founder -- the only

photo that they had of him. I also sent flowers and chocolates

to the graphic artist who had helped us on the job.




After we started work I found out that the other two firms

who pitched for the job never met with the client. They took his

details over the phone in a 10 minute conversation. Both

provided a one page quote a week later, and one of them hand

delivered it wearing a pair of gardening shorts.


Take a stab in the dark and guess who the client has just

signed on to keep their site up-to-date, submitted to the

engines, and more -- at a very, very healthy fee!


Why We Won

The reason we got the job was predominantly because we were

perceived as less risk than our competitors. They may well be

better or quicker designers, but the client doesn't know that.

Also, the way we developed the relationship indicated to the

client that we had a very thorough working knowledge of the

obstacles facing their Internet strategy. And finally, clients

do tend to associate a lower price with lower quality.


The strategy I've outlined here relies on two critical

elements:



  1. Relationship:
    the better the relationship

    we establish with the prospect, the more comfortable he/she

    will be with us. That equates directly to more sales.

  2. Perception:
    positively influencing

    people's perception is vital. People will make an assessment

    of you within about 3 seconds of meeting you. That's why I

    always visit clients impeccably dressed, carry a briefcase and

    use a fountain pen.


I disagree 100% that skill and talent are the requirements

for success in anything. The perception of those things is more

than a little important, too. The designers we were up against

may well have been better than my team. They may have more

skills. They may be better qualified. But it doesn't matter. The

client only wants to know that you can do the job and that there

is no risk involved in employing you.


We convince the client that we are the better people for the

job by convincing him to perceive us as expert, reliable and

safe.


People buy for 2 reasons -- and 2 reasons only: fear and

greed. People equate higher prices with better quality. It's

human nature.


If we have a prospect who is the middle manager from a big

company, we focus on his fear that if he picks the wrong

designer he will be in trouble with his boss. We show him that

we're the right choice by making sure he thinks we're the best

by a million miles. The price is very, very rarely an issue with

these guys -- aside from their budgetary constraints. With

smaller clients we focus on the fact that they don't want to

risk their money by going with someone who doesn't understand

exactly what they want and need.


If you have 100 equally talented designers vying for a job,

the job will be won by the designer who is perceived as the best

--- by that, I mean the most reliable. And that's decided by

things like what he/she is wearing, testimonials from previous

clients, and how quickly you respond to them etc. It's not

decided by who's the best designer -- that's just a subjective

thing.


Don't charge by the hour, and don't charge based on what

everyone else charges. Charge what you think the client will pay

someone of your (perceived) professionalism.


If you liked this article, you'll love



Brendon's Freelance Starter Kit! Click here to download your

copy now.


Brendon's upcoming SitePoint book will show you step-by-step

how to build your own successful Web design and development

business. Don't miss out!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

MUNGKIN NANTI - Peterpan

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi



Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini



Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu

Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi



Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini




Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri

Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri


TOKI, jiee Adrian K still playin around with the olympics games, He said "I like that very much, because I can get the free ticketz to Europe " ( Dasar banditzzz ) . Nuts.. This man never give up, salute to you bro... All Madcodes crew are very proud of you

Webcams,Google & Cocktails

THis Trick is old but, I had alot of fun doin it... if you guys wanna try, shoot your self

This is a rather amusing way to pass your time. And there seems to be no shortage of people that refuse to RTFM.....anyways I came across a few sites describing how to use google to search for open webcams...so after some research here's a list:

  • inurl:"axis-cgi/mjpg"
  • inurl:"MultiCameraFrame?Mode="
  • inurl:"view/index.shtml"
  • inurl:"ViewerFrame?Mode="
  • intitle:"Live View / - AXIS" inurl:view/view.shtml
  • inurl:"MultiCameraFrame?Mode="
  • intitle:"WJ-NT104 Main"
  • intitle:"snc-rz30 home" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • inurl:"ViewerFrame?Mode=Motion" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • inurl:LvAppl intitle:liveapplet
  • intitle:"Live View / - AXIS" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • "Powered by webcamXP"
  • inurl:indexFrame.shtml "Axis Video Server"
  • "MOBOTIX M1" and "open menu"
  • intitle:flexwatch intext:"Copyright by Seyeon TECH Co"

By Model
Axis

  • axis video server view.shtml
  • /view/view.shtml axis
  • "adding live video to one of your own pages a very easy task with an AXIS 2100 Network Camera"
  • "Live view - / - AXIS"
  • "Your browser has JavaScript turned off.For the user interface to work effectively"
  • indexFrame.html axis
  • "Live web imaging unleashed"

Canon

  • sample/LvAppl/

MOBOTIX

  • /control/userimage.html

JVC

  • "(c)copyright 1999-2003 VICTOR COMPANY OF JAPAN, LIMITED. All rights reserved"
  • "V.Networks Motion Picture(Java)"
  • "Control the Pan/Tilt and move to the Preset Position"

FlexWatch

  • /app/idxas.html
  • "Saving & Retrieving Mode"
  • Panasonic
    /ViewerFrame?Mode=Motion


    TOSHIBA

    • "TOSHIBA Network Camera - User Login"

    Java Based

    Sony

    /home/homeJ.html


    webcamXP (software)
    "my webcamXP server!"


    Happy googling......


    Tuesday, July 05, 2005

    Graphic Amateur Zone

    Take Me to Ur He4RT




    Hiding from the rain and snow


    Trying to forget but I won't let go


    Looking at a crowded street


    Listening to my own heart beat





    So many people all around the world


    Tell me where do I find someone like you girl




    Take me to your heart take me to your soul


    Give me your hand before I'm old


    Show me what love is - haven't got a clue


    Show me that wonders can be true




    They say nothing lasts forever


    We're only here today


    Love is now or never


    Bring me far away




    Take me to your heart take me to your soul


    Give me your hand and hold me


    Show me what love is - be my guiding star


    It's easy take me to your heart




    Standing on a mountain high


    Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky


    I should go and see some friends


    But they don't really comprehend




    Don't need too much talking without saying anything


    All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

    "IRIS" - GoGo Dols

    And I'd give up forever to touch you

    Cuz I know that you feel me somehow

    You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

    And I don't want to go home right now



    And all I can taste is this moment

    And all I can breathe is your life

    Cuz sooner or later it's over

    I just don't want to miss you tonight



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

    Or the moment of truth in your lies

    When everything feels like the movies

    Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    I just want you to know who I am

    I just want you to know who I am

    I just want you to know who I am






     

    Sunday, July 03, 2005

    New LOOK ^_^



    New LOOK ^_^ , aha mayan dapet selanya .... ternyata segampang ini yah \:D/ . Thanks to isnaini, croth mayan simple .... Dah ah males ngetik....

    Thursday, June 09, 2005

    BORING ABIS

    warezworld( freedownload ):(---not bad---)
    ===========================
    http://warez4ever.net
    http://katz.ws/page1.php

    ==========
    TUTORIALS:
    ==========
    http://zymic.com
    http://simpleipoh.com/templates
    http://www.tutorialized.com/
    http://designersbay.com/
    http://www.pixel2life.com/
    http://www.good-tutorials.com/

    ======
    FORUM:
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    http://www.webdesigntalk.net


    http://news.mobile9.com/2004/05/bluetooth-hacking-step-by-step-guide

    Friday, May 06, 2005

    E-GOLD

    http://www.dxinone.vu/ ( field )

    http://www.dx4dummies.com/ ( tutor )


    http://www.greatachiever.com/ ( explanation )

    should I... try that ... ouch..

    Thursday, April 28, 2005

    Surprising

    wow... I thought havin a stage at the Navy Medicine departement would be very anoying and full of trouble pops up. But,so far I am enjoying doin this activity. My Team is unpredicteble but its cool enough for me..

    ITS ROCK MAN.....
    hope we all pass this together... , peace ngantuk oiii... dah pagi...

    Saturday, February 26, 2005

    FINALLY

    Thank God I can pass the exam at psychiatri stage. Hmm what can I say.... it had been a great experience having interaction with mad people , but it had been very annoying pretend to be someone else ( not the real of me ). I have to do that, cause most of the counselor is a fucking creep. But they can't comein through to get to know me more.. hehehe whata....

    Right now I am at the Navy hospital, its really sucks too dealing with the attitude rules.. I dont like that, but I dont know ... maybe I have to get use to it. At least I could stay relax out there.. I hope I could pass this whole damn medicine stuff.

    Sometimes I could feel that you're around.... but I dont want u to be around me..
    Hope you can see your self more deep, so you might know what's inside you that makes me wanna stay fuckin away from you.... :P

    Gotta go

    Monday, February 07, 2005

    Evergreen

    I lie awake
    beside the windowsill

    like a flower in a vase

    a moment caught in glass


    the rays of
    sunlight come and beckon me

    to a sleepy dreamy haze

    a sense of summer days


    if only i could
    stop the flow of time

    turn the clock to yesterday

    erasing all the pain


    i've only
    memories of happiness

    such pleasure we have shared

    i'd do it all again


    the scenery is
    evergreen

    as buds turn into leaves, the colours live and breathe

    the scenery is evergreen

    your tears are falling silently


    so full of joy,
    you are a child of spring

    with a beauty that is pure

    an innocence endures


    you flow right
    through me like a medicine

    bringing quiet to my soul

    without you i'm not whole


    this scenery is
    evergreen

    i need you far too much, i long to feel your touch

    this scenery is evergreen

    you've always been so dear to me


    this scenery is
    evergreen

    it sorros at the sight of seeing you so sad

    this scenery is evergreen

    i wish that i could dry your tears


    the bells have
    rung, the time has come

    i cannot find the words to say my last goodbye

    this scenery is evergreen

    you've always been so dear to me

    Monday, January 17, 2005

    Vincent Liong (keep goin)

    Di depan monitor computer anda masing-masing.Dengan hormat,Bersama dengan surat ini saya ingin menyampaikanbeberapa hal berkaitan dengan judul yang sudah sayatulis di atas; “Metro TV Menghargai Objek WawancaraPsikologis sebagai Individu Pesakitan”. Dalam suratini saya akan membaginya dalam pembahasan sebagaiberikut:*

    Menghargai Objek Wawancara Psikologis s.*
    Pendapat / Perbandingan versi saya(Vincentliong)* Yang Saya Benarkan dan Saya Salahkan.* Siapakah Vincent Liong?*

    Harap dibacaMenghargai Objek Wawancara Psikologis sebagaiPesakitanJumat, 16 Juli 2004Saya mendapat SMS dari klinik ‘ProreVital’ yangberbunyi:VINCENT ,BESOK AJAK JUGA PAPA & MAMA YA TLG PAKAI BAJUPUTIH KARENA MAU DI SHOOT METRO TV.BYE KLIKIKSender: +6281599605**

    Beberapa hari sebelumnya memang saya telah membuat appointment dengan Dr. Tubagus Erwin Kusuma,SpKJ(Dr.Erwin) untuk berkonsultasi (kunjungan ke empatkali) dari rencana kunjungan keseluruhan sebanyak limakali. Appointment pada tanggal 17 Juli 2004 Pk 11.00WIB yang saya maksutkan untuk belajar metode-metodespiritual yang dihubungkan dengan kedokteran olehDr.Erwin.Sabtu, 17 Juli 2004Pada Pk 11.10 WIB saya sampai di klinik ProreVital.

    Seharusnya saya sudah sampai sepuluh menit sebelumnya,tetapi saya terlambat. Saya masuk ke ruangan dokterErwin di lantai 3 klinik untuk belajar dan keluar dariruangan Pk 12.01 WIB. Saya naik ke lantai 4 dimanasudah disiapkan untuk acara wawancara untuk dimasukkandi dalam program “Bincang Pagi” di Metro TV sehubungandengan saya dan teman-teman yang dianggap oleh ilmukedokteran sebagai orang Indigo (Memiliki aura Nila).

    Selang kurang lebih sepuluh menit, tanpa berbicaradengan objek wawancara soal pertanyaan yang akandiajukan dalam wawancara, kru dari Metro TV (yangberjumlah dua orang) bersiap-siap untuk memulaishooting. Dalam persiapan itu pewawancara (tidak sayasebutkan namanya) sempat mengatakan bahwa ia sedangkerja magang di Metro TV.Yang terlebih dahulu diminta untuk ikut di shootadalah kedua orangtua saya(Inna Wongso & Liong JunHok) dan Rossini orangtua dari Dias yang juga dianggapIndigo.

    Setelah pewawancara menanyakan kepadakameramen untuk mengambil sudut pengambilan gambaryang pas, shooting dimulai dengan pertanyaan kepadaRossini.Pertanyaan Pertama;”Gimana perasaan punya anakIndigo?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Pertanyaan di awal; yanglangsung menuju ke soal perasaan seorang ibu yangdikatakan oleh pihak dokter bahwa anaknya Indigomembuat suatu tekanan bagi si ibu soal bagaimana iaakan membawa anaknya? Apakah ia akan mengatakan bahwaYa, anak saya Indigo di tengah teori tentang indigoyang masih dapat dikatakan baru dan belum benar-benarditerima masyarakat.

    Dalam hal ini Rossini memilihuntuk menggambarkan kekurangtahuannya akan bidang inidan mengalihkan pertanyaan ke cerita tentangkeseharian anaknya tanpa menjawab pertanyaan denganbaik dan benar.)Pertanyaan Kedua;”Apa keistimewaan Dias?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Rupanya pewawancara mengertipembelokkan arah pertanyaan dari kata Indigo sebagaipoint utama kearah sesuatu yang sifatnya umum. Makapertanyaan ini dimunculkan dan Rossini hanya berbicarayang umum-umum saja soal bagaimana seorang ibu kagumakan anaknya.)

    Setelah mewawancara Rossini maka giliran orangua sayadiwawancara. Sebelum saya masuk ke cerita saya soalwawancara terhadap orangtua saya, perlu kiranya sayaceritakan latarbelakang pendidikan orangtua saya. Papasaya Liong Jun Hok lulusan dari jurusan IT dan Elektrodari sebuah universitas di Jerman. Mama saya InnaWongso adalah lulusan Mathematic dan IT dari sebuahuniversitas di Netherland. Kedua orangtua saya sangatberbeda dengan saya karena pola pikir mereka yangscientific dan penuh dengan ilmu yang hukumnya pasti,sedangkan saya paling tidak suka pada pelajaranmatematika dan segala berbau science.

    Pertanyaan Pertama;”Apa itu anak indigo menurut ibu?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Pertanyaan ini menembak diawal dengan dua pilihan. Jika orangtua saya lebihmemilih untuk menganggap anaknya memenuhi kata Indigo,maka ia akan mengambil kesimpulan berdasarkanpengalamannya hidup bersama anaknya. Jika orangtuasaya tidak benar-benar yakin bahwa anaknya indigo,tidak yakin bahwa apa nilai dan arti indigo itusendiri, maka orangtua saya akan mengambil jawabanatas pertanyaan tentang;”Apa itu anak Indigo” sesuaidengan tulisan-tulisan karya para ahli yang merasalebih sehat daripada orang lain. Masalahnya dalamwawancara ini orangtua saya sudah dinyatakan lebihdulu sebagai orangtua dari seorang anak(yaitu saya)yang dinyatakan indigo oleh para ahli. Tentu tidak adajawaban yang benar.

    Meski demikian orangtua saya maluuntuk menjawab; tidak tahu. Ibu saya mencoba mengingatkembali buku-buku yang dipelajarinya tentang anakindigo dan menjawab sesuai dengan apa yang tertulis disana. Kesimpulan yang keluar adalah tidak sama dengananaknya tetapi harus mewakili anaknya. Saya haruskatakana bahwa dalam hal ini kedua orangtua sayagoblok.)Pertanyaan Kedua;”Sejak kapan anak ibu Indigo?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Dalam pertanyaan inipewawancara sudah menekankan benar bahwa kesimpulanbuku telah benar-benar mewakili anak dari objekwawancara tanpa membutuhkan lagi bukti-buktipengalaman selama hidup bersama dengan anak itu (yaitusaya) untuk disebutkan. Dan memang cerita masa kecilsaya, pengalaman, dan prestasi saya sama sekali tidaksempat untuk disebutkan.

    Di awalnya orangtua sayamenjawab pertanyaan ini dengan mengatakan bahwa halini diketahuinya dari dokter, tetapi soal kelebihananaknya sudah diketahuinya sejak saya kecil. Di tengahmenjawab mama saya mulai sadar bahwa dirinya masukjebakan dan mengatakan dengan mendadak;”Anak sayabukan Indigo.” Tetapi ia kembali dan tetap melanjutkankembali seperti jawaban sebelumnya. Sementara itu papa saya terbakar oleh kesimpulan-kesimpulan buku yangdisamakan dengan anaknya dan terlanjur percaya karena itu keluar dari mulut isterinya. Papa sayamengeluarkan pernyataan-pernyataan membela diris eperti misalnya;”Keluarga kami keluarga yang liberal.Kami menghargai kebebasan anak, dsb…” Dan akhirnyasampai wawancara selesai.)Ketika wawancara dengan kedua orangtua saya selesai,saya memberi tanda jempol terbalik sebagai tandakecewa.

    Orangtua saya datang ke saya dan saya mulai mencaci maki mereka lalu pergi meninggalkan ruangan.Ketika pewawancara berniat mewawancara anak dariRossini, energi yang kuat membuat kamera terdistorsi.Maka wawancara dihentikan setelah melakukan wawancaradengan orangtua dari beberapa anak yang dianggapindigo. Tanpa anak yang dianggap Indigo itu sendiri.18 Juli 2004 pagi-pagi, saya baikkan dengan kedua ortu saya.

    Saturday, January 15, 2005

    Nice Forensic-Team

    spent 5 weeks with my forensic groups is alot of fun, I like that alot...
    I just can say that I do like working with you guys.. someday we might have another bussiness.. :D

    caw...

    Monday, January 03, 2005

    Self Confidence

    Self-confidence is an attitude which allows individuals to have positive yet realistic views of themselves and their situations. Self-confident people trust their own abilities, have a general sense of control in their lives, and believe that, within reason, they will be able to do what they wish, plan, and expect. Having self-confidence does not mean that individuals will be able to do everything. Self-confident people have expectations that are realistic. Even when some of their expectations are not met, they continue to be positive and to accept themselves.

    People who are not self-confident depend excessively on the approval of others in order to feel good about themselves. They tend to avoid taking risks because they fear failure. They generally do not expect to be successful. They often put themselves down and tend to discount or ignore compliments paid to them. By contrast, self-confident people are willing to risk the disapproval of others because they generally trust their own abilities. They tend to accept themselves; they don't feel they have to conform in order to be accepted.

    Self-confidence is not necessarily a general characteristic which pervades all aspects of a person's life. Typically, individuals will have some areas of their lives where they feel quite confident, e.g., academics, athletics, while at the same time they do not feel at all confident in other areas, e.g., personal appearance, social relationships.

    How is Self-Confidence Initially Developed?Many factors affect the development of self-confidence. Parent's attitudes are crucial to children's feelings about themselves, particularly in children's early years. When parents provide acceptance, children receive a solid foundation for good feelings about themselves. If one or both parents are excessively critical or demanding, or if they are overprotective and discourage moves toward independence, children may come to believe that they are incapable, inadequate, or inferior. However, if parents encourage children's moves toward self-reliance and accept and love their children when they make mistakes, children will learn to accept themselves and will be on their way to developing self-confidence.

    Surprisingly, lack of self-confidence is not necessarily related to lack of ability. Instead it is often the result of focusing too much on the unrealistic expectations or standards of others, specially parents and society. Friends' influences can be as powerful or more powerful than those of parents and society in shaping feelings about one's self. Students in their college years re-examine values and develop their own identities and thus are particularly vulnerable to the influence of friends.

    Assumptions that Continue to Influence Self-ConfidenceIn response to external influences, people develop assumptions; some of these are constructive and some are harmful. Several assumptions that can interfere with self-confidence and alternative ways of thinking are:
    1. Assumption: "I must always have love or approval from every significant person in my life."
      Alternative: This is a perfectionistic, unattainable goal. It is more realistic and desirable to develop personal standards and values that are not completely dependent on the approval of others.
    2. Assumption: "I must be thoroughly competent, adequate, and achieving in all important areas of my life."
      Alternative: This again is a perfectionistic, unattainable goal and suggests that personal worth is determined by achievement. Achievement can be satisfying but does not make you more worthy. Instead, worth is an inherent quality and all people possess it.
    3. Assumption: "My past remains all important and controls my feelings and behaviors in the present."
      Alternative: While it is true that your confidence was especially vulnerable to external influences during your childhood, as you grow older you can gain awareness and perspective on what those influences have been. In doing so, you can choose which influences you will continue to allow to have an effect on your life. You don't have to be helpless in he face of past events.
    Self-Defeating Thought Patterns

    Subscribing to these harmful assumptions leaves you vulnerable to the following self-defeating thought patterns:
    • All or nothing thinking. "I am a total failure when my performance is not perfect."
    • Seeing only dark clouds. Disaster lurks around every corner and comes to be expected. For example, a single negative detail, piece of criticism, or passing comment darkens all reality. "I got a C on one chem. test, now I'll never get into medical school."
    • Magnification of negative/minimization of positive. Good things don't count nearly as much as bad ones. "I know I won five chess games in a row, but losing this one makes me feel terrible about myself."
    • Uncritical acceptance of emotions as truth. "I feel ugly so it must be true.
    • Overemphasis on "should" statements. "Should statements are often perfectionistic and reflective of others' expectations rather than expressive of you own wants and desires. "Everyone should have a career plan when they come to college. I don't, so there must be something wrong with me."
    • Labeling. Labeling is a simplistic process and often conveys a sense of blame. "I am a loser and it's my fault."
    • Difficulty accepting compliments. "You like this outfit? I think it makes me look fat.
    The following strategies may help overcome such self-defeating thought patterns.

    Strategies for Developing Confidence
    • Emphasize strengths. Give yourself credit for everything you try. By focusing on what you can do, you applaud yourself for efforts rather than emphasizing end products. Starting from a base of what you can do instead of what you should do helps you live within the bounds of our inevitable limitations.
    • Take risks. Approach new experiences as opportunities to learn rather than occasions to win or lose. Doing so opens you up to new possibilities and can increase your sense of self-acceptance. Not doing so turns every possibility into an opportunity for failure, and inhibits persona growth.
    • Use self-talk. Self-talk as an opportunity to counter harmful assumptions Practice catching ourselves as you make these assumptions. Then, tell yourself to "stop" and substitute more reasonable assumptions. For example, when you catch yourself expecting perfection, remind yourself that you can't do everything perfectly, that it's only possible to try to do things and to try to do them well. This allows you to accept yourself while still striving to improve.
    • Self-evaluate. Learn to evaluate yourself independently. Doing so allows you to avoid the constant sense of turmoil that comes from relying exclusively on the opinions of others. Focusing internally on how you feel about your own behavior, work, etc. will give you a stronger sense of self and will prevent you from giving your personal power away to others.

    Sunday, January 02, 2005

    Indigo Movie..

    Today, Its really sucks. Really boring... I dont know what to do... there is somethin not good infront of me.. somethin worst probably. But I have to calm this , so I go to the community and try to find somethin to control this feelin.

    Even it still there ( argh its really hard to explain more clearly bout this stuff), but I am feelin much better after I found this blog http://theindigochildren.blogspot.com/2004/12/indigomovie-information.html

    Yeah finnally someone launch that movie, I am Glad. Because there would be alot of Mundanes ( nick for normal people ) would knows that we are exist. And WE ARE NOT MAD !! So people would respect us as who we are.

    well its time for me to go, ....

    mood : stuck... %$%&$*#&^@*$*#&*#

    Saturday, January 01, 2005

    Tsunami Imagery through CRISP-Singapore-satelite

    http://indonesia-tsunami.info/gallery/albums.php

    Indian Ocean Tsunami Imagery

    Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia


    Comparative imagery overview of coastline in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: SPOT/CRISP-Singapore)



    Comparative imagery overview of a village in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)




    Comparative imagery overview of northern shore Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, area pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)




    Comparative imagery overview of a town in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)






    Comparative imagery overview of area in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)


    Comparative imagery overview of coastline in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: SPOT/CRISP-Singapore)






    Comparative imagery overview of a section of the northern shore of Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)






    Comparative imagery overview of an urban area in proximity to the shore in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)





    Comparative imagery overview of area in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)



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