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Thursday, March 01, 2007

IP alias dengan ifconfig di FreeBSD

IP alias dengan ifconfig di FreeBSD

Untuk memberikan IP alias pada sebuah Ethernet card (dalam contoh digunakan interface rl0) , perhatikan contoh berikut : # ifconfig rl0

rl0: flags=8843 mtu 1500
inet6 fe80::250:bfff:fe21:7aab%rl0 prefixlen 64 scopeid 0×1
inet 192.168.0.9 netmask 0xffffff00 broadcast 192.168.0.255
ether 00:50:bf:21:7a:ab
media: Ethernet autoselect (100baseTX)
status: active

Dapat dilihat bahwa Ethernet tersebut (rl0) memiliki IP 192.168.0.9 , kita akan coba memberikan IP lain (192.168.0.99) pada rl0 : # ifconfig rl0 inet 192.168.0.99 netmask 255.255.255.255 alias

Kemudian coba kita lihat :

# ifconfig rl0

rl0: flags=8843 mtu 1500
inet6 fe80::250:bfff:fe21:7aab%rl0 prefixlen 64 scopeid 0×1
inet 192.168.0.9 netmask 0xffffff00 broadcast 192.168.0.255
inet 192.168.0.99 netmask 0xffffffff broadcast 192.168.0.99
ether 00:50:bf:21:7a:ab
media: Ethernet autoselect (100baseTX)
status: active

sekarang rl0 telah memiliki dua IP address, 192.168.0.9 dan 192.168.0.99, cek dengan ping :

# ping 192.168.0.99

PING 192.168.0.99 (192.168.0.99): 56 data bytes
64 bytes from 192.168.0.99: icmp_seq=0 ttl=64 time=0.295 ms
64 bytes from 192.168.0.99: icmp_seq=1 ttl=64 time=0.667 ms
64 bytes from 192.168.0.99: icmp_seq=2 ttl=64 time=0.665 ms
64 bytes from 192.168.0.99: icmp_seq=3 ttl=64 time=0.657 ms
^C
— 192.168.0.99 ping statistics —
4 packets transmitted, 4 packets received, 0% packet loss
round-trip min/avg/max/stddev = 0.295/0.571/0.667/0.159 ms

Untuk menghilangkan IP alias dapat dilakukan dengan :

# ifconfig rl0 inet 192.168.0.99 -alias
# ifconfig rl0

rl0: flags=8843 mtu 1500
inet6 fe80::250:bfff:fe21:7aab%rl0 prefixlen 64 scopeid 0×1
inet 192.168.0.9 netmask 0xffffff00 broadcast 192.168.0.255
ether 00:50:bf:21:7a:ab
media: Ethernet autoselect (100baseTX)
status: active

Untuk menambahkan IP alias setiap kali system start , Edit rc.conf dan tambahkan :

ifconfig_rl0_alias0=”inet 192.168.0.99 netmask 255.255.255.255″
ifconfig_rl0_alias1=”inet 192.168.0.19 netmask 255.255.255.255″

contoh diatas adalah apabila kita akan menambahkan IP alias pada rl0 dengan dua IP ( 192.168.0.99 dan 192.168.0.19 ), dengan catatan dimulai dengan ifconfig_rl0_alias0=”" dan seterusnya.

Entri ini dibuat oleh kang deden dan ditulis pada 31 Januari, 2007 pada 1:49 pm dan diberkaskan di dalam FreeBsd. Buat Penanda Halaman Tautan Permanen. Ikuti komentar apa pun di sini dengan Pengumpan RSS untuk tulisan ini. Tulis komen atau tinggalkan trackback: URL Trackback

Membangun Web Server di FreeBSD

Membangun Web Server di FreeBSD

Proyek Apache HTTP Server ini merupakan proyek open-source yang dikembangkan oleh Apache Software Foundation. Lembaga ini bertujuan mengembangkan Apache sebagai aplikasi web server modern yang bisa dipergunakan di multi platform OS, khususnya Unix dan Windows.


Saya tidak akan membahas sejarah perkembangan Apache ini secara rinci. Untuk mengetahui lebih lengkap perkembangannya silakan kunjungi About the Apache HTTP Server Project.


Dalam artikel ini, saya tidak hanya membahas Apache secara khusus saja, namun juga beberapa aplikasi yang umum dipergunakan bersama aplikasi ini, seperti OpenSSL, MySQL, dan PHP.


1. Download


Aplikasi yang dipergunakan dalam artikel ini adalah Apache versi 2.2.3, MySQL versi 5.0.22, OpenSSL versi 0.9.8d, dan PHP versi 5.2.0.


Dari semua aplikasi di atas, hanya Apache dan PHP yang akan diinstall secara manual, sedang MySQL dan OpenSSL diinstall via ports. Jadi yang akan didownload secara manual hanya Apache dan PHP.


Apache versi terakhir dapat didownload di http://apache.the.net.id/httpd/httpd-2.2.3.tar.bz2. Versi terakhir Apache saat artikel ini ditulis adalah versi 2.2.3. Dan versi PHP terakhir saat ini adalah versi 5.2.0. PHP dapat didownload di http://id2.php.net/get/php-5.2.0.tar.bz2/from/a/mirror.


2. Instalasi


2.1. Install MySQL


Sebelum menginstall Apache dan PHP, yang harus diinstall terlebih dahulu adalah MySQL dan OpenSSL. Untuk menginstalasi kedua aplikasi ini di FreeBSD cukup mudah melalui ports.


$ cd /usr/ports/database/mysql51-server

$ sudo make install

$ sudo portupgrade -rR mysql51-server


Command terakhir adalah untuk mengupgrade versi MySQL ke versi terbaru.


Untuk mengaktifkan MySQL saat booting, buka file /etc/rc.conf dan tambahkan baris:


mysql_enable = “YES”


Copykan file konfigurasi MySQL:


$ sudo cp /usr/local/share/mysql/my-medium.cnf /var/db/mysql/my.cnf

$ sudo chgrp mysql /var/db/mysql/my.cnf


Kemudian jalankan command berikut untuk mengaktifkan daemon MySQL.


$ sudo /usr/local/etc/rc.d/mysql-server start


Bila berhasil, seharusnya Anda akan melihat baris berikut saat menjalankan command ps ax | grep mysql:


678 p0- I 0:00.01 /bin/sh /usr/local/bin/mysqld_safe –defaults-extra-file=/var/db/mysql/my.cnf –user=mysql –datadir=/var/db/mysql

701 p0- S 383:04.45 /usr/local/libexec/mysqld –defaults-extra-file=/var/db/mysql/my.cnf –basedir=/usr/local –datadir=/var/db/mysql


Selanjutnya buat password untuk MySQL root user:


$ sudo mysqladmin -u root password ‘password-root-mysql’


Coba masuk ke MySQL console dengan password root tersebut.


$ mysql -u root -p

Enter password:

Welcome to the MySQL monitor. Commands end with ; or \g.

Your MySQL connection id is 603704 to server version: 5.0.22


Type ‘help;’ or ‘\h’ for help. Type ‘\c’ to clear the buffer.


mysql> \q

Bye


2.2. Install OpenSSL


Langkah selanjutnya adalah menginstalasi OpenSSL, cara menginstalasi OpenSSL dalam hal ini menggunakan ports juga.


$ cd /usr/ports/security/openssl

$ sudo make install clean


Buat direktori untuk menempatkan certificate SSL:


$ sudo mkdir -p /usr/local/openssl/{certs,private}


Kemudian generate private key 1024-bit:


$ cd /usr/local/openssl

$ sudo /usr/local/bin/openssl genrsa -out private/namadomain.com.key 1024


Ubah permission untuk direktori private menjadi:


$ sudo chown -R root:wheel private

$ sudo chmod -R 600 private

$ sudo chmod u+X private


Generate Certificate Signing Request (CSR) File:


$ /usr/local/bin/openssl req -new -key private/namadomain.com.key -out certs/namadomain.com.csr


Country Name (2 letter code) [GB]: ID

State or Province Name (full name) [Some-State]: Propinsi

Locality Name (eg, city) []: Kota

Organization Name (eg, company) [Internet Widgits Pty Ltd]: PT. Nama Usaha

Organizational Unit Name (eg, section) []: Bidang Usaha Perusahaan

Common Name (eg, your name or your server’s hostname) []: namadomain.com

Email Address []: postmaster@namadomain.com


Please enter the following ‘extra’ attributes

to be sent with your certificate request

A challenge password []: masukkanpassword

An optional company name []:


Kemudian buat Certificate Signed (CRT) file:


$ sudo /usr/local/bin/openssl x509 -req -days 365 -in certs/namadomain.com.csr -out certs/namadomain.com.crt -signkey private/namadomain.com.key


Certificate yang dibuat itu nantinya akan digunakan bila webserver support SSL.


2.3. Install Apache


Saya asumsikan, source Apache hasil download Anda disimpan di /home/users.


$ cd /home/users

$ tar -jxvf httpd-2.2.3.tar.bz2

$ cd httpd-2.2.3

$ ./configure \

–prefix=/usr/local/apache2 \

–enable-rewrite \

–enable-dav \

–enable-ssl \

–with-ssl=/usr/local \

–enable-vhost-alias \

–with-included-apr

$ make

$ sudo make install


Keterangan dari masing-masing opsi di atas adalah:


–prefix=[DIR]: Menginstall aplikasi ke target direktori yang ditentukan.

–enable-rewrite: Mengaktifkan rule based URL manipulation melalui module mod_rewrite.

–enable-dav: Mengaktifkan protocol WebDAV melalui module mod_dav. Dengan protocol WebDAV ini memungkinkan membuat, memindah, menyalin, dan menghapus resource pada sebuah web server.

–enable-ssl: Mengaktifkan module SSL/TLS.

–with-ssl=[DIR]: Di mana library SSL/TLS diinstall.

–enable-vhost-alias: Support dengan banyak virtual host.

–with-included-apr: Install apr. APR atau Apache Portable Runtime pada Apache 2.2.x versi merupakan source yang sudah menyatu dengan Apache Source.


2.4. Install PHP


Sebelum Anda menginstalasi PHP, saya sarankan untuk menginstall aplikasi-aplikasi via ports yang diperlukan (recommended) PHP saat instalasinya. Aplikasi-aplikasi tersebut adalah:


- mcrypt (/usr/ports/security/mcrypt) dan libmcrypt (/usr/ports/security/libmcrypt)

- db4 (/usr/ports/databases/db4) dan gdbm (/usr/ports/databases/gdbm)

- gd (/usr/ports/graphics/gd)

- libxml2 (/usr/ports/textproc/libxml2)


Saya asumsikan pula, source PHP yang Anda download disimpan di /home/users.


$ cd /home/users

$ tar -jxvf php-5.2.0.tar.bz2

$ cd php-5.2.0

$ ./configure \

–with-apxs2=/usr/local/apache2/bin/apxs \

–with-mysql=/usr/local \

–with-openssl=/usr/local \

–with-config-file-path=/usr/local/apache2/conf \

–with-png-dir=/usr/local/lib \

–with-gettext=/usr/local/lib \

–with-gd \

–with-zlib \

–with-xml \

–with-mcrypt=/usr/local/lib \

–enable-mbstring=all \

–disable-short-tags

$ make

$ make install


Keterangan dari masing-masing opsi di atas adalah:


–with-apxs2[=FILE]: Menyertakan shared Apache 2.0 Handler module.

–with-mysql[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan MySQL. DIR adalah di mana binary MySQL diinstall.

–with-openssl[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan OpenSSL.

–with-config-file-path=PATH: Di mana file php.ini akan diletakkan.

–with-png-dir[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan format file PNG.

–with-gettext[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan GNU gettext.

–with-gd[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan GD.

–with-zlib[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan zlib.

–with-libxml-dir[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan XML.

–with-mcrypt[=DIR]: Menyertakan dukungan mcrypt atau Multi-cipher cryptographic library.

–enable-mbstring: Mengaktifkan dukungan multibyte string.

–disable-short-tags: Nonaktifkan penggunaan tag pendek <? pada script PHP.


Edit file /usr/local/apache2/conf/php.ini dan sesuaikan dengan kebutuhan Anda. Pada dasarnya default file konfigurasi ini sudah cukup baik.


Karena PHP diinstall sebagai module pada Apache, kita perlu mengubah kepemilikan direktori PHP yang hanya akan mengijinkan akses kepada user root dan www saja.


$ sudo chown -R root:www /usr/local/lib/php

$ sudo chmod -R g-w,o-rwx /usr/local/lib/php


Edit file /usr/local/apache2/conf/httpd.conf dan ubah baris-baris berikut menjadi:


<IfModule !mpm_netware_module>

User www

Group www

</IfModule>


ServerAdmin hostmaster@namadomain.com

ServerName www.namadomain.com:80

<IfModule dir_module>

DirectoryIndex index.html index.php

</IfModule>


<IfModule mime_module>

TypesConfig conf/mime.types

AddType application/x-compress .Z

AddType application/x-gzip .gz .tgz

AddType application/x-httpd-php .php

AddHandler cgi-script .cgi

</IfModule>


Aktifkan juga baris-baris berikut dengan menghilangkan tanda # di awal barisnya:


Include conf/extra/httpd-autoindex.conf

Include conf/extra/httpd-userdir.conf

Include conf/extra/httpd-vhosts.conf

Include conf/extra/httpd-dav.conf

Include conf/extra/httpd-default.conf

Include conf/extra/httpd-ssl.conf


Selanjutnya ubah permission direktori Apache:


$ cd /usr/local


Ubah kepemilikan direktori apache2 ke user root:wheel


$ sudo chown -R root:wheel apache2


Ubah permission pada direktori apache2. Karena direktori ini kepemilikannya oleh root:wheel dan supaya bisa diakses oleh group www, kita ijinkan group www ini membaca dan mengeksekusi file-file di bawahnya.


$ sudo chmod 755 apache2


Selanjutnya pada direktori apache2 ini hanya akan mengijinkan user root saja untuk dapat membaca dan menulisinya dengan mengubah permission menjadi:


$ sudo chmod -R 600 apache2/*


Hanya user root saja yang dapat mengakses seluruh direktori yang berada di bawah direktori apache2:


$ sudo chmod -R u+X apache2

$ cd apache2


Ubah kepemilikan direktori binary Apache ke user root:


$ sudo chmod -R u+x bin


Direktori cgi-bin juga berisi file-file binari. Hanya mengijinkan user root dan group www saja yang bisa mengaksesnya.


$ sudo chgrp -R www cgi-bin

$ sudo chmod -R u+x,g+x cgi-bin


Web server akan membaca direktori icons, maka ubah pula kepemilikannya agar bisa dibaca oleh group www.


$ sudo chgrp -R www icons

$ sudo chmod -R g+rX icons


Ubah juga permission direktori logs:


$ sudo chgrp -R www logs

$ sudo chmod g+wX logs


Terakhir ubah kepemilikan direktori htdocs agar bisa dibaca oleh publik. Direktori ini nanti merupakan tempat menyimpan file-file web yang akan ditampilkan pada browser. Akses penulisan ke direktori ini hanya dibatasi kepada user root saja.


$ sudo chgrp -R www htdocs

$ sudo chmod -R g+rX htdocs


Karena menginstall Apache dari source file. Kita harus membuat sendiri startup script-nya agar dapat dieksekusi oleh server pada saat booting. Start up script diletakkan di direktori /usr/local/etc/rc.d. Startup script dapat didownload di sini: Apache-2 FreeBSD Startup Script


Kemudian tambahkan dua baris berikut pada file /etc/rc.conf:


apache2_enable=”YES”

apache2_flags=”-DSSL”


Ubah permission file start up script menjadi:


$ sudo chmod 555 /usr/local/etc/rc.d/apache.sh


Jalankan file tersebut untuk mengaktifkan daemon httpd:


$ sudo /usr/local/etc/rc.d/apache.sh start


Periksa apakah daemon httpd sudah aktif dengan command ps ax:


$ ps ax | grep httpd


33549 ?? Ss 0:12.88 /usr/local/apache2/bin/httpd -DSSL

33550 ?? I 0:00.43 /usr/local/apache2/bin/httpd -DSSL

33551 ?? I 0:00.40 /usr/local/apache2/bin/httpd -DSSL

33552 ?? I 0:00.32 /usr/local/apache2/bin/httpd -DSSL


Bila output di console Anda sudah seperti di atas, selamat! Anda sudah berhasil menginstall web server pada server Anda.


3. Referensi



  1. http://www.bowe.id.au/michael/isp/webmail-server.htm#MYSQL

  2. http://httpd.apache.org/docs/2.2/

  3. http://www.google.co.id

POSTFIX

POSTFIX

Disini saya akan menjelaskan langkah langkah dalam membuat smtp server
dengan postfix baik sekarang kita mulai untuk menginstall postfix
tersebut

server $ cd /usr/local/src/

server $ cd postfix xxxxx.tar.gz

alangkah lebih baik bila kita membuat dahulu user untuk postfixnya
dengan cara

server $ pw adduser postfix

nah sekarang kita rubah user postfix di master.passwd dan buat menjadi
home :nonexistent dan shell /sbin/nologin
bila sudah selesai sekarang kita tinggal mengkompile source postfix tadi

server $ make

server $ make install

secara default postfix akan di simpan di direktory /etc/postfix.
nah sekarang kita akan mengotakatik postfix tersebut

server $ cd /etc/postfix

server $ cp main.cf main.cf.old

server $ ee main.cf

rubahlah atau tambahkan pada baris berikut ini

queue_directory = /var/spool/postfix

program_directory = /some/where/postfix/bin

command_directory = /usr/sbin

daemon_directory = /usr/libexec/postfix

mail_owner = postfix

myhostname = server.contoh.com

mydomain = contoh.com

myorigin = $mydomain

inet_interfaces = all

mydestination = $myhostname, localhost.$mydomain $mydomain

alias_maps = hash:/etc/aliases

alias_database = hash:/etc/aliases

mail_spool_directory = /var/mail

mynetworks = 192.168.0.0/8, 127.0.0.0/8

smtpd_banner = $myhostname ESMTP $mail_name ($mail_version)

local_destination_concurrency_limit = 2

default_destination_concurrency_limit = 10

debug_peer_level = 2

debugger_command =

PATH=/usr/bin:/usr/X11R6/bin

xxgdb $daemon_directory/$process_name $process_id & sleep 5

virtual_maps = hash:/etc/postfix/virtual

canonical_maps = hash:/etc/postfix/canonical

Bila sudah selesai sekarang kita akan membuat virtual dan canonical
untuk mendaftarkan user dan untuk mengalokasikan e-mail tersebut dengan
cara:

server $ pwd

/etc/postfix

server $ ee virtual

tambahkan baris berikut ini

user@contoh.com user

user1@contoh.com user1

user2@contoh.com user2

dst

nah sekarang kita akan membuat canonical

user user@contoh.com

user1 user1@contoh.com

user2 user2@contoh.com

dst

bila sudah selesai sekarang yang kita alkukan adalah

server $ /usr/sbin/postmap virtual

server $ /usr/sbin/postmap canonical

ok sekarang kita bikin aliasnya untuk postfix

server $ mv /etc/aliases /etc/aliases.old

server $ ee /etc/aliases

postfix: root

root : user@contoh.com

mailer-daemon : user@contoh.com

postmaster : user@contoh.com

Nah sekarang kita tinggal menjalankan postfix tersebut dan mencoba
untuk mengetstnya dengan cara :

server $ /usr/sbin/postfix start

server $ telnet contoh.com 25

Trying 192.168.0.2....

Connected to contoh.com

Escape character is ']'.

220 server.contoh.com ESMTP postfix(postfix-19991231-pl13)

quit

Connection closed by foreign host.

Selamat anda baru saja menginstallkan postfix sebagai SMTP server

bila anda ingin supaya postfix tersebut jalan pada waktu boot buatlah
atau tambahkan pada rc.local

server $ echo "/usr/sbin/postfix start" >> /etc/rc.local



http://salman.or.id/postfix/

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Salutation for rizzo


My hats of you Mr.Rizzo, www.Youtube.com is very cool.. maybe someday we can watch tv in a realtime mode using your concepts ..



Wednesday, May 17, 2006

OST Sassy Girl - Chun Hyang

Gila nyarinya setengah mati nih lyrics, gw penasaran aje huehueu denger di ampm terus gw coba googling , eh ini movie pernah gw liat sekilas di tv . Ceweknya cute.. lagunya ampun dah...
Tapi yang masih bikin penasaran as one singernya kek apaan yeh.. hmm ntar gw googling lage dah. Nih lyrics lagunya asli wah parah parah... melow tapi gmn yah.. tau ah gelap. Mo denger lagunya nih test aje gw taroh di sini nih

mi an hae ya ha neun geo ni - as one

mi an han geo ni mi an hae ya ha neun geo ni neol sa rang ha ge dwae beo rin geonae sa rang ee neol manh hi him deul ge han da neun geol al myeon seo do
a jik do bo nae ji do mot ha go itt seo i reon nal i hae han da myeonjo geum man na deo un da go hae do na yong seo hae jam shi man deo

reff :
**a ni ra go an dwen da go nae nun eul ga ryeo do neo neun itt seot goham ke hae seo~ a pa ha myeo sal ra do geu geot man neu ro haeng bok haet seo
nae du gwi reul da mak ga deud ji anh ha do eon je na nae ge mal reul haet goji wo ji ji anh neun da myeon i jen jeong mal sa rang ha go ship peo
repeat * (2 times)
he~~ ye~~

repeat*


I got it, the singger is " As One " here is one of their songs "I've Never been me "
AS One - I've Never been me


AS One - I've Never been me
Hey lady, you lady

cursing at your life

You're a discontented mother

and a regimented wife

I've no doubt you dream about

the things you'll never do

But,

I wish someone had a talked to
me

like I wanna talk to you.....

Ooh I've been to Georgia and California

and, anywhere I could run

Took the hand of a preacher man

and we made love in the sun

but I ran out of places

and friendly faces

because I had to be free

I've been to paradise

but I've never been to me...

Please lady, please, lady

don't just walk away

'cause I have this need to tell
you

why I'm all alone today

I can see so much of me

still living in your eyes

won't you share a part

of a weary heart

that has lived million lies.......

Ooh I've been to Nice and the Isle
of Greece

while I've sipped champagne on
a yacht

I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo

and showed 'em what I've got

I've been undressed by kings

and I've seen some things

that a woman ain't supposed to
see.......

I've been to paradise,

but I've never been to me.......

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie. A fantasy we create about

people and places as we'd like
them to be.

But you know what truth is?

it's that little baby you're holding
and

it's that man you fought with this
morning

the same one you're going to make
love with tonight

that's truth, that's love.........

Sometimes I've been to crying for
unborn children

that might have made me complete

but I.....I took the sweet life

I never knew

I'd be bitter from the sweet

I've spent my life exploring

the subtle whoring

that costs too much to be free....

hey lady......

I've been to paradise......

but I've never been to me.........

I've been to paradise

but I've never been to me....

I've been to paradise

but I've never been to me..


Akhirnya

Finally web ampm.or.id almost done, really boring doin things in a couple months. I got a link to Michael S. Sunggiardi sites http://www.bogor.net/idkf/ very usefull link thanks to cybermad aka yudi. Michael is a talent person in IT, people use to call him Opa hehe. Read abit about network defense from his site, cool. Next lookin for inspiration to build a portal for food catalog.
braaa college really sucks, But I have to finished it... wish me luck.. I hate this but I have to face it. damn...

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Samsons-Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati..
Wooo
( Begitu engkaulah; cinta sejati )

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah


Thursday, March 16, 2006

Catcha

Fiuh.. finally I know who u are... It's easy to get to know ur character. Because too many drama and lies in ur life.. And I think u r not a human or maybe ur insane..
I know alot about what u r doin behind me, very surprising for the first time, But thats u. And u would never ever change, only death that can makes u change ur life and style.

Too many lies that u hide, too many ... and its getting more.. and more.. I am not talking but it doesn't mean I dont know the truth. I keep my mouth shut, but It doesnt mean my heart won't talk.

I am tired watching ur bad habit even u've tried so hard to hide it. I dont wanna see u crash.. stay away from u is the best solution I guess. U r to Hipocrit, and there are more too.. and too.. U are not human maybe u r an evil that becomes a human.

I'd try so hard to understand, to make u realize what you'v keep doin. But its useless... well you're on your own right now, good luck asta lavista..babe

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

LOVE between TWO Hearts

If u find urself in love with some1 who does not love u, be gentle with urself. There is nothing wrong with u. Love just din choose 2 rest in d other person's heart.


If u find some1 else in love with u n u don't love her/him, feel honoured that love came n called at ur door, but gently refuse d gift u can't return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.


How u deal with love is how u deal with u, n all our hearts feel d same pains n joys, even if our lives n ways r different.



If u fall in love with another, n she falls in love with u, n then love chooses 2 leave, do not try 2 reclaim it or 2 assess blame, Let it go. There is a reason n there is a meaning. U will know in time.

Remember that u don't choose love. Love chooses u. All u can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into ur life. Feel
the way it fills u 2 overflowing, then reach out n give it away.


This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, n they begin 2 look at love as something that flows 2 them rather than from them.


Remember this, n keep it to ur heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, n its own reason for coming n going. U can't bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. U can only embrace it when it arrives n give it away when it comes 2 u.


But if it chooses 2 leave from ur heart or from d heart of ur lover, there is nothing u can do n there is nothing u should do. Love always has been n always will be a mystery.


Be glad that it came 2 live for a moment in ur life. Don't deny love just only u don't want 2 be hurt...


Give it back 2 d person who brought it alive in u. Give it 2 others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it 2 d world around u in anyway u can.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

CONFUSED

Shit, I am very confused. I found her, but the more she act the more I dont know her, and wanna run away from her. I still dont get it, I know she know what to do. But why she dont do that ? arghh... its hurt you know, I hope you know how I feel.

what you did is what you gonna get... thats all I can say. Take care... :(

Friday, August 26, 2005

believe in you or not to believe in

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Friday, July 29, 2005

SOULMATE

.: I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet;

.: I finally found the one who makes me feel complete...

.: It started over coffee, we started out as friends;

.: It's funny how from simple things; the best things begin...

.: This time is different;

.: la la la la

.: It's all because of you!..

.: It's better than it's ever been;

.: Cuz we can talk it through;

.: My favorite line was 'Can I call you sometime?';

.: It's all you had to say...

.: To take my breath away...



.: This is it!

.: Oh, I finally found someone; Someone to share my life;

.: I finally found the one - to be with every night;

.: Cause whatever I do

.: It's just got to be you!

.: My life has just begun, I finally found someone...



.: Did I keep you waiting?

.: I didn't mind

.: I apologize

.: Baby, that's fine

.: I would wait forever

.: Just to know you were mine;

.: Ya Know - I love your hair...

.: Are you sure it looks right?

.: I love what you wear...

.: Isn't it too tight?

.: You're exceptional!

.: I can't wait for the rest of my life...



.: Oh This Is It!

.: I finally found someone; Someone to share my life,

.: I finally found the one; to be with every night...

.: Cause whatever I do

.: It's just got to be you

.: My life has just begun; I finally found someone...

.: And whatever I do.

.: It's just got to be you!

.: My life has just begun...

.: I finally found someone...


**Yeah...... Finally I found my soulmate.... , It's hard to belive but its
true...and it is you


She is Very simple, smart, sexy, kind, pretty, mature.. and she have almost
everything inside me.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Step-By-Step Guide to a Signed Contract


By Brendon Sinclair
October 16th 2002

As a freelancer, you can expect to experience some tough
competition when you pitch for a job.



For any one job, you might compete with other freelancers, small


Web design firms, and even larger interactive agencies.


So how can you make sure your quote or proposal wins the job?



The New Rules for Quoting


My advice for quoting is this: never, ever charge by how long it will take.
Don't charge by how skilled you are.


And certainly don't charge less than the competition. Charge more -- usually
lots more.


I base my charges on how much I think the client will pay.


We win 95% of all the jobs for which we pitch, and I can just about guarantee
we're the most expensive every time.

Why? Well, the key to quoting is to realize this: clients won't assess you on
your skill or programming level.


They won't assess you on your creative genius, or even on your design
ability.


They usually don't have the technical expertise to objectively judge that
stuff anyway.


The only thing the client is interested in is: can you do the job?

And, more importantly: is contracting you as the designer going to be less
risky than using someone else?


How To Win With a Higher Quote


We won a job a couple of weeks ago for $17,000. We were up against two other
designers.


The other quotes were for $3,000 and $3,500. So why did we get the job?



  • Are we better qualified? No.


  • Would we finish the site quicker? No.

  • Are we better designers? Probably not.

  • Do we live closer to the client? Nope.

  • Is the client my dad? Good question, but no!

I'll go through what we did so you can see exactly why we got the job and
continue to get jobs at a premium price.


Initiation


The client rings the office and tells me he wants a Website. I make an
appointment for 3 days time.


Letter of Thanks


As soon as I'm off the phone I send a "Thanks for the call" letter confirming
the time and place of the meeting.


We include a business card. The client receives it the next day.


Research


We do as much research on the potential client as possible, including when
the company started, products, people in the firm, etc.


This takes a couple of hours.


The Meeting


I arrive on time to the meeting wearing a perfect blue suit and a blue tie
(as this is the client's corporate colour).


I'm carrying my beautiful leather briefcase. I open the conversation with
some small talk and tell the potential client what an awful weekend I had
because I shot a 85 on the ABC Golf Course. He says "Really? I'm a member there.
I love golf." Gee, what a co-incidence that is.


We finish the small talk and get onto business. I bring out a manila folder
with his name, position,


business name and logo on a sticker on the front. Also evident is the time
and date of the meeting.


From this I pull out a 6 page 'Assessment Form' that I'll use to identify his
needs and wants.


We go through this at the meeting, and I make many notes using my lovely
fountain pen.


After an hour-long meeting I thank him for his time, tell him I'll be in
touch again on Thursday, and leave.



Letter of Thanks


Back at the office I draft the "Thank you for your time" letter and post it
off.



The Follow-Up


On Thursday at 9am I ring and let the prospect know that we've reviewed his
needs and wants and have a draft proposal ready.


I explain that we need to go over the draft to "ensure I have everything
straight in my head" and


I make an appointment to meet with him in 3 days time. I send off a
letter confirming that appointment.




The Second Meeting


I go to the next meeting with a neat, concise overview of what his needs are,


and what we need to do together in order to achieve them.


toss in a few case studies of previous clients to show we have a
complete understanding of what he requires.




The client says "Yep, that's about what we need." I ask when he needs our quote,


and the client says "It's quite urgent, so the middle of the week." I promise
to deliver it to the client by Wednesday at 4pm.




Letter of Thanks


You guessed it -- the client gets another "Thank you for your time" letter.




Proposal Delivery


On Tuesday at 9.30am the client receives the quote from us

via courier. We've attached a polite note that explains that, as

he needed the quote urgently, we worked on it over the weekend

to have it ready early.


The quote itself is actually a 30-page, nicely-bound proposal

that reiterates his needs and wants, and shows how the site will

address them. It includes testimonials from previous clients

(with contact numbers), proposed site flow charts, and a

timetable of exactly what would happen and when.




We also include profiles on the team members who would work

on the site, and the FAQ section has 20 of our most common

questions and answers. We also include copies of articles from

computer magazines that have reviewed our previous sites, and a

CD-ROM that contains examples of our previous sites.


Proposal Meeting


I visit the prospect as promised and ask if he has any

questions regarding the proposal. We discuss these, and I then

ask for the job. "Well John," I say, "would you like us to work

with you on this project?"


Letter of Thanks


When he says "Yes", we send him a "Thanks for choosing us"

letter, along with our first invoice (of 50% of the total

quote). We include a Reply Paid envelope that he can use to mail

us the cheque.





The key phases are:

  • Phase 1- Keyword Strategy

  • Phase 2 - Site Design & Structure

  • Phase 3 - Optimizing Web Pages

  • Phase 4 - Link Building

  • Phase 5 Getting Indexed

  • Phase 6 Monitoring & Adjustment




Thanking the Referrer


I then send the person who referred this client a "Thanks for

the referral" letter, and then take him and his wife out for a

very nice dinner.


Following Through


As it turns out, we didn't do what we'd promised on this

particular job... we did more: 2 extra pages, a little


Flash
, and one or two other things.

When the site was finished I took the client out for lunch

and thanked him for the assistance with the project. I told him

what a pleasure it had been to work with such a professional,

and gave him a gift of a framed photo that we'd scanned and put

on the site. It was a photo of the business' founder -- the only

photo that they had of him. I also sent flowers and chocolates

to the graphic artist who had helped us on the job.




After we started work I found out that the other two firms

who pitched for the job never met with the client. They took his

details over the phone in a 10 minute conversation. Both

provided a one page quote a week later, and one of them hand

delivered it wearing a pair of gardening shorts.


Take a stab in the dark and guess who the client has just

signed on to keep their site up-to-date, submitted to the

engines, and more -- at a very, very healthy fee!


Why We Won

The reason we got the job was predominantly because we were

perceived as less risk than our competitors. They may well be

better or quicker designers, but the client doesn't know that.

Also, the way we developed the relationship indicated to the

client that we had a very thorough working knowledge of the

obstacles facing their Internet strategy. And finally, clients

do tend to associate a lower price with lower quality.


The strategy I've outlined here relies on two critical

elements:



  1. Relationship:
    the better the relationship

    we establish with the prospect, the more comfortable he/she

    will be with us. That equates directly to more sales.

  2. Perception:
    positively influencing

    people's perception is vital. People will make an assessment

    of you within about 3 seconds of meeting you. That's why I

    always visit clients impeccably dressed, carry a briefcase and

    use a fountain pen.


I disagree 100% that skill and talent are the requirements

for success in anything. The perception of those things is more

than a little important, too. The designers we were up against

may well have been better than my team. They may have more

skills. They may be better qualified. But it doesn't matter. The

client only wants to know that you can do the job and that there

is no risk involved in employing you.


We convince the client that we are the better people for the

job by convincing him to perceive us as expert, reliable and

safe.


People buy for 2 reasons -- and 2 reasons only: fear and

greed. People equate higher prices with better quality. It's

human nature.


If we have a prospect who is the middle manager from a big

company, we focus on his fear that if he picks the wrong

designer he will be in trouble with his boss. We show him that

we're the right choice by making sure he thinks we're the best

by a million miles. The price is very, very rarely an issue with

these guys -- aside from their budgetary constraints. With

smaller clients we focus on the fact that they don't want to

risk their money by going with someone who doesn't understand

exactly what they want and need.


If you have 100 equally talented designers vying for a job,

the job will be won by the designer who is perceived as the best

--- by that, I mean the most reliable. And that's decided by

things like what he/she is wearing, testimonials from previous

clients, and how quickly you respond to them etc. It's not

decided by who's the best designer -- that's just a subjective

thing.


Don't charge by the hour, and don't charge based on what

everyone else charges. Charge what you think the client will pay

someone of your (perceived) professionalism.


If you liked this article, you'll love



Brendon's Freelance Starter Kit! Click here to download your

copy now.


Brendon's upcoming SitePoint book will show you step-by-step

how to build your own successful Web design and development

business. Don't miss out!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

MUNGKIN NANTI - Peterpan

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi



Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini



Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu

Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi



Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini




Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri

Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri


TOKI, jiee Adrian K still playin around with the olympics games, He said "I like that very much, because I can get the free ticketz to Europe " ( Dasar banditzzz ) . Nuts.. This man never give up, salute to you bro... All Madcodes crew are very proud of you

Webcams,Google & Cocktails

THis Trick is old but, I had alot of fun doin it... if you guys wanna try, shoot your self

This is a rather amusing way to pass your time. And there seems to be no shortage of people that refuse to RTFM.....anyways I came across a few sites describing how to use google to search for open webcams...so after some research here's a list:

  • inurl:"axis-cgi/mjpg"
  • inurl:"MultiCameraFrame?Mode="
  • inurl:"view/index.shtml"
  • inurl:"ViewerFrame?Mode="
  • intitle:"Live View / - AXIS" inurl:view/view.shtml
  • inurl:"MultiCameraFrame?Mode="
  • intitle:"WJ-NT104 Main"
  • intitle:"snc-rz30 home" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • inurl:"ViewerFrame?Mode=Motion" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • inurl:LvAppl intitle:liveapplet
  • intitle:"Live View / - AXIS" Requiere plugin Active-X.
  • "Powered by webcamXP"
  • inurl:indexFrame.shtml "Axis Video Server"
  • "MOBOTIX M1" and "open menu"
  • intitle:flexwatch intext:"Copyright by Seyeon TECH Co"

By Model
Axis

  • axis video server view.shtml
  • /view/view.shtml axis
  • "adding live video to one of your own pages a very easy task with an AXIS 2100 Network Camera"
  • "Live view - / - AXIS"
  • "Your browser has JavaScript turned off.For the user interface to work effectively"
  • indexFrame.html axis
  • "Live web imaging unleashed"

Canon

  • sample/LvAppl/

MOBOTIX

  • /control/userimage.html

JVC

  • "(c)copyright 1999-2003 VICTOR COMPANY OF JAPAN, LIMITED. All rights reserved"
  • "V.Networks Motion Picture(Java)"
  • "Control the Pan/Tilt and move to the Preset Position"

FlexWatch

  • /app/idxas.html
  • "Saving & Retrieving Mode"
  • Panasonic
    /ViewerFrame?Mode=Motion


    TOSHIBA

    • "TOSHIBA Network Camera - User Login"

    Java Based

    Sony

    /home/homeJ.html


    webcamXP (software)
    "my webcamXP server!"


    Happy googling......


    Tuesday, July 05, 2005

    Graphic Amateur Zone

    Take Me to Ur He4RT




    Hiding from the rain and snow


    Trying to forget but I won't let go


    Looking at a crowded street


    Listening to my own heart beat





    So many people all around the world


    Tell me where do I find someone like you girl




    Take me to your heart take me to your soul


    Give me your hand before I'm old


    Show me what love is - haven't got a clue


    Show me that wonders can be true




    They say nothing lasts forever


    We're only here today


    Love is now or never


    Bring me far away




    Take me to your heart take me to your soul


    Give me your hand and hold me


    Show me what love is - be my guiding star


    It's easy take me to your heart




    Standing on a mountain high


    Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky


    I should go and see some friends


    But they don't really comprehend




    Don't need too much talking without saying anything


    All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

    "IRIS" - GoGo Dols

    And I'd give up forever to touch you

    Cuz I know that you feel me somehow

    You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

    And I don't want to go home right now



    And all I can taste is this moment

    And all I can breathe is your life

    Cuz sooner or later it's over

    I just don't want to miss you tonight



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

    Or the moment of truth in your lies

    When everything feels like the movies

    Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    And I don't want the world to see me

    Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

    When everything's made to be broken

    I just want you to know who I am



    I just want you to know who I am

    I just want you to know who I am

    I just want you to know who I am






     

    Sunday, July 03, 2005

    New LOOK ^_^



    New LOOK ^_^ , aha mayan dapet selanya .... ternyata segampang ini yah \:D/ . Thanks to isnaini, croth mayan simple .... Dah ah males ngetik....

    Thursday, June 09, 2005

    BORING ABIS

    warezworld( freedownload ):(---not bad---)
    ===========================
    http://warez4ever.net
    http://katz.ws/page1.php

    ==========
    TUTORIALS:
    ==========
    http://zymic.com
    http://simpleipoh.com/templates
    http://www.tutorialized.com/
    http://designersbay.com/
    http://www.pixel2life.com/
    http://www.good-tutorials.com/

    ======
    FORUM:
    ======
    http://www.webdesigntalk.net


    http://news.mobile9.com/2004/05/bluetooth-hacking-step-by-step-guide

    Friday, May 06, 2005

    E-GOLD

    http://www.dxinone.vu/ ( field )

    http://www.dx4dummies.com/ ( tutor )


    http://www.greatachiever.com/ ( explanation )

    should I... try that ... ouch..

    Thursday, April 28, 2005

    Surprising

    wow... I thought havin a stage at the Navy Medicine departement would be very anoying and full of trouble pops up. But,so far I am enjoying doin this activity. My Team is unpredicteble but its cool enough for me..

    ITS ROCK MAN.....
    hope we all pass this together... , peace ngantuk oiii... dah pagi...

    Saturday, February 26, 2005

    FINALLY

    Thank God I can pass the exam at psychiatri stage. Hmm what can I say.... it had been a great experience having interaction with mad people , but it had been very annoying pretend to be someone else ( not the real of me ). I have to do that, cause most of the counselor is a fucking creep. But they can't comein through to get to know me more.. hehehe whata....

    Right now I am at the Navy hospital, its really sucks too dealing with the attitude rules.. I dont like that, but I dont know ... maybe I have to get use to it. At least I could stay relax out there.. I hope I could pass this whole damn medicine stuff.

    Sometimes I could feel that you're around.... but I dont want u to be around me..
    Hope you can see your self more deep, so you might know what's inside you that makes me wanna stay fuckin away from you.... :P

    Gotta go

    Monday, February 07, 2005

    Evergreen

    I lie awake
    beside the windowsill

    like a flower in a vase

    a moment caught in glass


    the rays of
    sunlight come and beckon me

    to a sleepy dreamy haze

    a sense of summer days


    if only i could
    stop the flow of time

    turn the clock to yesterday

    erasing all the pain


    i've only
    memories of happiness

    such pleasure we have shared

    i'd do it all again


    the scenery is
    evergreen

    as buds turn into leaves, the colours live and breathe

    the scenery is evergreen

    your tears are falling silently


    so full of joy,
    you are a child of spring

    with a beauty that is pure

    an innocence endures


    you flow right
    through me like a medicine

    bringing quiet to my soul

    without you i'm not whole


    this scenery is
    evergreen

    i need you far too much, i long to feel your touch

    this scenery is evergreen

    you've always been so dear to me


    this scenery is
    evergreen

    it sorros at the sight of seeing you so sad

    this scenery is evergreen

    i wish that i could dry your tears


    the bells have
    rung, the time has come

    i cannot find the words to say my last goodbye

    this scenery is evergreen

    you've always been so dear to me

    Monday, January 17, 2005

    Vincent Liong (keep goin)

    Di depan monitor computer anda masing-masing.Dengan hormat,Bersama dengan surat ini saya ingin menyampaikanbeberapa hal berkaitan dengan judul yang sudah sayatulis di atas; “Metro TV Menghargai Objek WawancaraPsikologis sebagai Individu Pesakitan”. Dalam suratini saya akan membaginya dalam pembahasan sebagaiberikut:*

    Menghargai Objek Wawancara Psikologis s.*
    Pendapat / Perbandingan versi saya(Vincentliong)* Yang Saya Benarkan dan Saya Salahkan.* Siapakah Vincent Liong?*

    Harap dibacaMenghargai Objek Wawancara Psikologis sebagaiPesakitanJumat, 16 Juli 2004Saya mendapat SMS dari klinik ‘ProreVital’ yangberbunyi:VINCENT ,BESOK AJAK JUGA PAPA & MAMA YA TLG PAKAI BAJUPUTIH KARENA MAU DI SHOOT METRO TV.BYE KLIKIKSender: +6281599605**

    Beberapa hari sebelumnya memang saya telah membuat appointment dengan Dr. Tubagus Erwin Kusuma,SpKJ(Dr.Erwin) untuk berkonsultasi (kunjungan ke empatkali) dari rencana kunjungan keseluruhan sebanyak limakali. Appointment pada tanggal 17 Juli 2004 Pk 11.00WIB yang saya maksutkan untuk belajar metode-metodespiritual yang dihubungkan dengan kedokteran olehDr.Erwin.Sabtu, 17 Juli 2004Pada Pk 11.10 WIB saya sampai di klinik ProreVital.

    Seharusnya saya sudah sampai sepuluh menit sebelumnya,tetapi saya terlambat. Saya masuk ke ruangan dokterErwin di lantai 3 klinik untuk belajar dan keluar dariruangan Pk 12.01 WIB. Saya naik ke lantai 4 dimanasudah disiapkan untuk acara wawancara untuk dimasukkandi dalam program “Bincang Pagi” di Metro TV sehubungandengan saya dan teman-teman yang dianggap oleh ilmukedokteran sebagai orang Indigo (Memiliki aura Nila).

    Selang kurang lebih sepuluh menit, tanpa berbicaradengan objek wawancara soal pertanyaan yang akandiajukan dalam wawancara, kru dari Metro TV (yangberjumlah dua orang) bersiap-siap untuk memulaishooting. Dalam persiapan itu pewawancara (tidak sayasebutkan namanya) sempat mengatakan bahwa ia sedangkerja magang di Metro TV.Yang terlebih dahulu diminta untuk ikut di shootadalah kedua orangtua saya(Inna Wongso & Liong JunHok) dan Rossini orangtua dari Dias yang juga dianggapIndigo.

    Setelah pewawancara menanyakan kepadakameramen untuk mengambil sudut pengambilan gambaryang pas, shooting dimulai dengan pertanyaan kepadaRossini.Pertanyaan Pertama;”Gimana perasaan punya anakIndigo?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Pertanyaan di awal; yanglangsung menuju ke soal perasaan seorang ibu yangdikatakan oleh pihak dokter bahwa anaknya Indigomembuat suatu tekanan bagi si ibu soal bagaimana iaakan membawa anaknya? Apakah ia akan mengatakan bahwaYa, anak saya Indigo di tengah teori tentang indigoyang masih dapat dikatakan baru dan belum benar-benarditerima masyarakat.

    Dalam hal ini Rossini memilihuntuk menggambarkan kekurangtahuannya akan bidang inidan mengalihkan pertanyaan ke cerita tentangkeseharian anaknya tanpa menjawab pertanyaan denganbaik dan benar.)Pertanyaan Kedua;”Apa keistimewaan Dias?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Rupanya pewawancara mengertipembelokkan arah pertanyaan dari kata Indigo sebagaipoint utama kearah sesuatu yang sifatnya umum. Makapertanyaan ini dimunculkan dan Rossini hanya berbicarayang umum-umum saja soal bagaimana seorang ibu kagumakan anaknya.)

    Setelah mewawancara Rossini maka giliran orangua sayadiwawancara. Sebelum saya masuk ke cerita saya soalwawancara terhadap orangtua saya, perlu kiranya sayaceritakan latarbelakang pendidikan orangtua saya. Papasaya Liong Jun Hok lulusan dari jurusan IT dan Elektrodari sebuah universitas di Jerman. Mama saya InnaWongso adalah lulusan Mathematic dan IT dari sebuahuniversitas di Netherland. Kedua orangtua saya sangatberbeda dengan saya karena pola pikir mereka yangscientific dan penuh dengan ilmu yang hukumnya pasti,sedangkan saya paling tidak suka pada pelajaranmatematika dan segala berbau science.

    Pertanyaan Pertama;”Apa itu anak indigo menurut ibu?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Pertanyaan ini menembak diawal dengan dua pilihan. Jika orangtua saya lebihmemilih untuk menganggap anaknya memenuhi kata Indigo,maka ia akan mengambil kesimpulan berdasarkanpengalamannya hidup bersama anaknya. Jika orangtuasaya tidak benar-benar yakin bahwa anaknya indigo,tidak yakin bahwa apa nilai dan arti indigo itusendiri, maka orangtua saya akan mengambil jawabanatas pertanyaan tentang;”Apa itu anak Indigo” sesuaidengan tulisan-tulisan karya para ahli yang merasalebih sehat daripada orang lain. Masalahnya dalamwawancara ini orangtua saya sudah dinyatakan lebihdulu sebagai orangtua dari seorang anak(yaitu saya)yang dinyatakan indigo oleh para ahli. Tentu tidak adajawaban yang benar.

    Meski demikian orangtua saya maluuntuk menjawab; tidak tahu. Ibu saya mencoba mengingatkembali buku-buku yang dipelajarinya tentang anakindigo dan menjawab sesuai dengan apa yang tertulis disana. Kesimpulan yang keluar adalah tidak sama dengananaknya tetapi harus mewakili anaknya. Saya haruskatakana bahwa dalam hal ini kedua orangtua sayagoblok.)Pertanyaan Kedua;”Sejak kapan anak ibu Indigo?”(NOTE versi Vincentliong: Dalam pertanyaan inipewawancara sudah menekankan benar bahwa kesimpulanbuku telah benar-benar mewakili anak dari objekwawancara tanpa membutuhkan lagi bukti-buktipengalaman selama hidup bersama dengan anak itu (yaitusaya) untuk disebutkan. Dan memang cerita masa kecilsaya, pengalaman, dan prestasi saya sama sekali tidaksempat untuk disebutkan.

    Di awalnya orangtua sayamenjawab pertanyaan ini dengan mengatakan bahwa halini diketahuinya dari dokter, tetapi soal kelebihananaknya sudah diketahuinya sejak saya kecil. Di tengahmenjawab mama saya mulai sadar bahwa dirinya masukjebakan dan mengatakan dengan mendadak;”Anak sayabukan Indigo.” Tetapi ia kembali dan tetap melanjutkankembali seperti jawaban sebelumnya. Sementara itu papa saya terbakar oleh kesimpulan-kesimpulan buku yangdisamakan dengan anaknya dan terlanjur percaya karena itu keluar dari mulut isterinya. Papa sayamengeluarkan pernyataan-pernyataan membela diris eperti misalnya;”Keluarga kami keluarga yang liberal.Kami menghargai kebebasan anak, dsb…” Dan akhirnyasampai wawancara selesai.)Ketika wawancara dengan kedua orangtua saya selesai,saya memberi tanda jempol terbalik sebagai tandakecewa.

    Orangtua saya datang ke saya dan saya mulai mencaci maki mereka lalu pergi meninggalkan ruangan.Ketika pewawancara berniat mewawancara anak dariRossini, energi yang kuat membuat kamera terdistorsi.Maka wawancara dihentikan setelah melakukan wawancaradengan orangtua dari beberapa anak yang dianggapindigo. Tanpa anak yang dianggap Indigo itu sendiri.18 Juli 2004 pagi-pagi, saya baikkan dengan kedua ortu saya.

    Saturday, January 15, 2005

    Nice Forensic-Team

    spent 5 weeks with my forensic groups is alot of fun, I like that alot...
    I just can say that I do like working with you guys.. someday we might have another bussiness.. :D

    caw...

    Monday, January 03, 2005

    Self Confidence

    Self-confidence is an attitude which allows individuals to have positive yet realistic views of themselves and their situations. Self-confident people trust their own abilities, have a general sense of control in their lives, and believe that, within reason, they will be able to do what they wish, plan, and expect. Having self-confidence does not mean that individuals will be able to do everything. Self-confident people have expectations that are realistic. Even when some of their expectations are not met, they continue to be positive and to accept themselves.

    People who are not self-confident depend excessively on the approval of others in order to feel good about themselves. They tend to avoid taking risks because they fear failure. They generally do not expect to be successful. They often put themselves down and tend to discount or ignore compliments paid to them. By contrast, self-confident people are willing to risk the disapproval of others because they generally trust their own abilities. They tend to accept themselves; they don't feel they have to conform in order to be accepted.

    Self-confidence is not necessarily a general characteristic which pervades all aspects of a person's life. Typically, individuals will have some areas of their lives where they feel quite confident, e.g., academics, athletics, while at the same time they do not feel at all confident in other areas, e.g., personal appearance, social relationships.

    How is Self-Confidence Initially Developed?Many factors affect the development of self-confidence. Parent's attitudes are crucial to children's feelings about themselves, particularly in children's early years. When parents provide acceptance, children receive a solid foundation for good feelings about themselves. If one or both parents are excessively critical or demanding, or if they are overprotective and discourage moves toward independence, children may come to believe that they are incapable, inadequate, or inferior. However, if parents encourage children's moves toward self-reliance and accept and love their children when they make mistakes, children will learn to accept themselves and will be on their way to developing self-confidence.

    Surprisingly, lack of self-confidence is not necessarily related to lack of ability. Instead it is often the result of focusing too much on the unrealistic expectations or standards of others, specially parents and society. Friends' influences can be as powerful or more powerful than those of parents and society in shaping feelings about one's self. Students in their college years re-examine values and develop their own identities and thus are particularly vulnerable to the influence of friends.

    Assumptions that Continue to Influence Self-ConfidenceIn response to external influences, people develop assumptions; some of these are constructive and some are harmful. Several assumptions that can interfere with self-confidence and alternative ways of thinking are:
    1. Assumption: "I must always have love or approval from every significant person in my life."
      Alternative: This is a perfectionistic, unattainable goal. It is more realistic and desirable to develop personal standards and values that are not completely dependent on the approval of others.
    2. Assumption: "I must be thoroughly competent, adequate, and achieving in all important areas of my life."
      Alternative: This again is a perfectionistic, unattainable goal and suggests that personal worth is determined by achievement. Achievement can be satisfying but does not make you more worthy. Instead, worth is an inherent quality and all people possess it.
    3. Assumption: "My past remains all important and controls my feelings and behaviors in the present."
      Alternative: While it is true that your confidence was especially vulnerable to external influences during your childhood, as you grow older you can gain awareness and perspective on what those influences have been. In doing so, you can choose which influences you will continue to allow to have an effect on your life. You don't have to be helpless in he face of past events.
    Self-Defeating Thought Patterns

    Subscribing to these harmful assumptions leaves you vulnerable to the following self-defeating thought patterns:
    • All or nothing thinking. "I am a total failure when my performance is not perfect."
    • Seeing only dark clouds. Disaster lurks around every corner and comes to be expected. For example, a single negative detail, piece of criticism, or passing comment darkens all reality. "I got a C on one chem. test, now I'll never get into medical school."
    • Magnification of negative/minimization of positive. Good things don't count nearly as much as bad ones. "I know I won five chess games in a row, but losing this one makes me feel terrible about myself."
    • Uncritical acceptance of emotions as truth. "I feel ugly so it must be true.
    • Overemphasis on "should" statements. "Should statements are often perfectionistic and reflective of others' expectations rather than expressive of you own wants and desires. "Everyone should have a career plan when they come to college. I don't, so there must be something wrong with me."
    • Labeling. Labeling is a simplistic process and often conveys a sense of blame. "I am a loser and it's my fault."
    • Difficulty accepting compliments. "You like this outfit? I think it makes me look fat.
    The following strategies may help overcome such self-defeating thought patterns.

    Strategies for Developing Confidence
    • Emphasize strengths. Give yourself credit for everything you try. By focusing on what you can do, you applaud yourself for efforts rather than emphasizing end products. Starting from a base of what you can do instead of what you should do helps you live within the bounds of our inevitable limitations.
    • Take risks. Approach new experiences as opportunities to learn rather than occasions to win or lose. Doing so opens you up to new possibilities and can increase your sense of self-acceptance. Not doing so turns every possibility into an opportunity for failure, and inhibits persona growth.
    • Use self-talk. Self-talk as an opportunity to counter harmful assumptions Practice catching ourselves as you make these assumptions. Then, tell yourself to "stop" and substitute more reasonable assumptions. For example, when you catch yourself expecting perfection, remind yourself that you can't do everything perfectly, that it's only possible to try to do things and to try to do them well. This allows you to accept yourself while still striving to improve.
    • Self-evaluate. Learn to evaluate yourself independently. Doing so allows you to avoid the constant sense of turmoil that comes from relying exclusively on the opinions of others. Focusing internally on how you feel about your own behavior, work, etc. will give you a stronger sense of self and will prevent you from giving your personal power away to others.

    Sunday, January 02, 2005

    Indigo Movie..

    Today, Its really sucks. Really boring... I dont know what to do... there is somethin not good infront of me.. somethin worst probably. But I have to calm this , so I go to the community and try to find somethin to control this feelin.

    Even it still there ( argh its really hard to explain more clearly bout this stuff), but I am feelin much better after I found this blog http://theindigochildren.blogspot.com/2004/12/indigomovie-information.html

    Yeah finnally someone launch that movie, I am Glad. Because there would be alot of Mundanes ( nick for normal people ) would knows that we are exist. And WE ARE NOT MAD !! So people would respect us as who we are.

    well its time for me to go, ....

    mood : stuck... %$%&$*#&^@*$*#&*#

    Saturday, January 01, 2005

    Tsunami Imagery through CRISP-Singapore-satelite

    http://indonesia-tsunami.info/gallery/albums.php

    Indian Ocean Tsunami Imagery

    Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia


    Comparative imagery overview of coastline in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: SPOT/CRISP-Singapore)



    Comparative imagery overview of a village in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)




    Comparative imagery overview of northern shore Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, area pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)




    Comparative imagery overview of a town in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)






    Comparative imagery overview of area in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)


    Comparative imagery overview of coastline in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: SPOT/CRISP-Singapore)






    Comparative imagery overview of a section of the northern shore of Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)






    Comparative imagery overview of an urban area in proximity to the shore in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: DigitalGlobe)





    Comparative imagery overview of area in Aceh, Sumatra, Indonesia, pre- and post-tsunami.


    (Image source: Space Imaging/CRISP-Singapore)



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    Thursday, December 30, 2004

    TSUNAMI 26 Des 2004










    Condolences to All people who had the tsunami disaster.

    We all gettin near to the "End Of The Days", another distruction will coming after this one.

    People will lost their family, someone they loved and more...

    There are lots of lights surrounding the Earth, I might not be the one who sense it. Others Indigos feel the same too...

    Take a Good Care.. in these crowd, and let us welcome the New year 2005 with lots of Hope for Peace and Happiness for everyone..









    http://www.nbc10.com/news/4026938/detail.html


    http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/flash/photo/world/2004-12-28_quakeday2/movie.htm


    http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/4125481.stm




    Saturday, December 11, 2004

    STUDY AT Germany

    One of my friend ask me how to gain knowledge at Germany, well It would waste more then one day to explain. So.. I think the best way to find out is clicking the link below... Its in Indonesian language written by someone who lived in German for years.. And I thought his explanation is better then me.. :)

    http://www.bidikbud.de/indo/PANDUAN/bab-1.html

    Apa kelebihan studi lanjut di Jerman? Dibanding dengan negara
    lain, pendidikan tinggi Jerman menawarkan keunggulan komparatif
    sbb:

    • Mahasiswa tidak dikenai biaya pendidikan tinggi.

    • Sumbangan dana pendidikan dari pemerintah dan badan
      swasta Jerman cukup besar, sehingga sarana pendidikan
      cukup memadai.

    • Hampir semua perguruan tinggi berstatus negeri dan diakui
      sama oleh pemerintah Jerman.

    • Jumlah perguruan tinggi yang berorientasi praktek cukup
      banyak.

    • Hubungan antara perguruan tinggi dan badan swasta sangat
      erat, sehingga jumlah tempat pelatihan dan praktek yang
      disediakan oleh swasta cukup banyak dan memadai.

    • Mutu pendidikan sangat tinggi dengan tuntutan kualifikasi
      yang ketat.

    • Kultur dan moral bangsa Jerman yang tinggi membantu
      membentuk karakter yang baik.


    I'll be back......

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